Detachment

This thought process is provoked by thots that I have been having lately, here, at US. You may be wondering why I am specifying the place. You will know the reason in the course of the blog.

I was supposed to return back to India sometime in early November. With all the politics going around everywhere that I spent most of my time in a given day, I was least bothered about it. I was looking at everything with the attitude, "I am neways going to be around for just few more days. Why bother about all these, unnecessarily?" And then the return-back date got post-poned by abt a month or so. When similar situations arose and the "dont care" thot came along, i realized i wudnt b arnd for just "few more days" but for quite sometime. Thats when I realized the difference in the short term attitude and the long term attitude. If the attitude "why bother when m arnd for just few more days" is extended to the rest of my life, say another 40-50 yrs, wouldn't it be nearly same as detachment?

Well, I think it can at least be start of detachment, as the attitude is not exactly as same as what its supposed to be. I at least wouldn't react to the situations, start treating these with equanimity. But is it really the right path, right attitude? Am not sure...

Maharishi has many a times said "I have treated everyone with "nirlakshya"... whether it was a highly respected priest, or a king or a beggar. That is the attitude of a Jnani and that is what makes Him great". That is so very true. We are so selfish and dependent on the rest that if we simply cannot ignore everyone and be to ourselves... we just do not have that strength. We are selfish. We have our own reasons to be nice to someone and be rude to another. Isn't that the attachment? If we think "I am going to see this person around for the rest, say "just" 40 yrs" and ignore everything, isn't it detachment? I think it is... Some ppl may counter-argue that its egoistic if we ignore others... But I think that's true only when u ignore few and adore the rest. If you ignore everyone equally, who can snatch what from you? Only when we want something of someone do we think of the repercussions and treat them accordingly, again a selfish deed... The Jnani is self-content. He doesn't need nething from neone. No wonder He is the happiest!

I wish... I wish I cud be in that state where I could ignore everyone and be detached, expecting nothing from neone... I only wish...